He gave me his number and I gave him mine. We started texting and it was nice. I had never had someone texting me good morning and good night religiously everyday and I liked it. It was like having found a best friend that I never had. A best friend that you wouldn’t mind snogging, but still. The worst in all that is that being friends is not all that I wanted with him. I was still were I was when I first started to daydream about him : I wanted him as my boyfriend, if he was interested of course.
How to come on the subject of something so hard to talk about ? It’s all ‘what if he doesn’t feel the same way?’ and ‘We’re just friends, come on, how could you score a guy like him?!’… But I guess that I have to tell myself that ‘you can’t lose what you never had’… What’s making me hesitate is that the little I have with him is worth something to me, and I’m not sure if I want to jeopardize it.
What to do? Either way there’s something not going like I want it to.